On Failing and Facing Fears

I started rock climbing a couple months ago. I also started a little yoga challenge on instagram last week. These two things alone have started to create a lot of failure in my life.

Let me start by saying that I do not like to try new things. In fact I really hate new things. New experiences, new people, new places, new jobs, new whatever. I don't like the unknown. I don't like not knowing what I'm doing, feeling like a fool, and then failing.

As I'm getting older, and married someone who loves all the new things, I am slowly starting to accept this whole trying new things "thing". Slooooowly. Chad's really had to be patient with me.

Obviously failing is no fun. It's a blow to your ego, it just doesn't feel nice and it's even less fun when it's in public and you feel like everyone is watching. If I'm going to fail miserably please let me do it in private where no one can watch me cry.

Rock Climbing has really made me face all my failure right in the face. And scary? I was terrified when I started. Terrified. There were melt downs. Multiple. Some days are good and some days I make it 5 feet off the ground while a 10 year old girl zips past me on the route next to mine. Talk about some serious failure, in front of a bunch of people no less.

Then there's my yoga challenge. I take pictures of certain poses and post them to my instagram account. Again, no hiding there. Also a bit intimidating when there are people doing full on one handed handstand backbend thingys. See, I don't even know what any of these things are called. And to be honest, I still can't lean backwards with this back of mine, let alone bend backwards.

I'm a new climber and a new yogi. I am a beginner and don't know much. But I'm trying and I'm getting better and stronger. We all have to start somewhere and I am starting at the very beginning of these 2 awesome activities. And there's nothing wrong with that. Nothing wrong with trying hard, learning and yes, even failing along the way.

As Tony would say "Do your best and forget the rest". Wise words Tony, very wise indeed.

So I'm trying to be at peace with all of the failing currently happening in my life. I'm trying not to let fear hold me back from trying. I may not be able to do something perfect, but I can push pass the fear and try. I can do my best.

Recipe Love: Lettuce Wraps

I haven't posted any of our recipes on here as of late because, well, they've been less than thrilling. And my pictures of food are less than thrilling at best. But as I was going through my Pinterest recipes page I remembered this little gem from Iowa Girl Eats. It's so easy it's ridiculous, besides that, it's so delicious it's ridiculous. The next time your in the mood for some takeout, give these babies a try. They taste just like P.F. Chang, only better ;)

 

P.F. Chang Lettuce Wraps
(Iowa Girl Eats)
serves 2-3

Ingredients:

1lb ground chicken breast
1/2 onion, minced
salt & pepper
2 garlic cloves, minced
1″ knob ginger, peeled & minced
2-1/2 Tablespoons soy sauce
1 Tablespoon + 1 teaspoon rice vinegar
1 Tablespoon sesame oil
1 Tablespoon peanut butter, smooth or chunky it doesn't matter
1/2 Tablespoon water
1/2 Tablespoon honey
2 teaspoons chili garlic sauce (or more if you like it hotter)
dash of pepper
3 green onions, chopped
1/2-8oz can sliced water chestnuts, drained & chopped
1/4 cup peanuts, chopped
10-12 large outer lettuce leaves, rinsed and patted dry

Directions:

1. In a large skillet start cooking your onions until almost translucent. Add in the chicken, salt & pepper and cook until the chicken is almost done. Make sure your really break up the chicken well. Add in the garlic and ginger and cook until the chicky is done!

2. While all of that is cooking you can start on the sauce. Combine soy sauce, rice vinegar, oil, pb, water, honey, chili garlic sauce and pepper in a microwave safe bowl. Nuke it for 20 seconds and then stir until it's all combined and smooth. Toss this into the skillet and stir everything up.

3. Add in the green onions and water chestnuts to the skillet and cook for 1 or 2 more minutes, until the onions soften and the water chestnuts are heated through.

4. Serve! Serve these rolled on lettuce leaves with peanuts sprinkled on top. Get to rollin'!

My Notes:

• From now on I will always double the sauce. A-L-W-A-Y-S. It's darn good.
• To stretch this meal a little further we will often half the recipe for the two of us and add in some rice. This is where some extra sauce really comes in handy to flavor up that white rice. If you didn't make any extra we've just used soy sauce before and that's tasty too!

Awkward and Awesome Thursday

Awkward:

• The tip of my middle finger going numb from climbing and having it stay that way for days afterwards. It's almost back to normal....
• Chad sending his iPhone through the wash cycle, yup, the whole cycle. He threw it in rice then attacked it with my hair dryer aaaaaaannnnd.... it turned on, and works, mostly. Thankfully we have geek sqaud and his new phone should be here soon. Phew.
• Patients who wait in my waiting room for 20 minutes and then decide they have to go the bathroom right as I call them back. Really? You couldn't have done that in the 20 minutes you spent sitting there staring blankly ahead?
• Driving in St George this week:

Awesome:

• A pull up is currently within my reach. I've never been able to do a real one and it's becoming a real possibility. A chin up totes happened this weekend.
• Cabin socks from Dicks. So Warm. So Amazing.
• Our heated blanket. We cozy up in that and are out but 9pm. lol. The animals are also in love with it.
• Today is Chad's last day of finals for the semester!
• The Twelve Days of Christmas box that my parents sent us for December. So fun, we will be making sugar cookies and watching my Grandma win all the things on The Price is Right this weekend courtesy of them!

Winter Wonderland

 

 

 

 

 

 

On Friday we were feeling pretty cocky about our current situation. We live in St. George, land of the sun!!! We weren't going to let a little snow stop us from rock climbing all weekend like we had planned.  So Friday we went out, and while cold, we still were able to climb and have a good time all bundled up.

Then Saturday came. And the weather straight up laughed in our faces as it proceeded to snow ALL DAY LONG (8 inches of snow, third largest amount on record). After breakfast we realized it wasn't slowing down any time soon. I wanted to bundle up, stay indoors, and eat cookies until I passed out in my hot cocoa. Chad had other plans. And his plans ended up being pretty freaking great once he convinced me to peel my butt off the couch.

We went out to Snow Canyon State Park, and finally saw it in the Snow. It was gorgeous, all white and red. Rukia hasn't had a more fun time in her entire life, and we loved all the hiking, photography, snow ball throwing, and (Chad's homemade) hot cocoa drinking in the middle of a very snowy and deserted desert. It really was magical. And as long as this only happens once this winter, it will continue to stay magical.

Awkward and Awesome Thursday

I will always regret not getting this.

 Awkward:

• Waking up to find your dog puked all over the couch.
•  Being taught how to tie a bow. Apparently a Kneader's bow is super duper special.
• The amount of dishes we let pile up over Thanksgiving. We may not have made a big dinner but we also didn't do dishes for the full 5 day break.
• The amount of bananas and yogurt that I eat... together. Both of which I decided I hated in high school. I can't remember the number of times I said that bananas would kill you. You live and you learn #turningintomyparents

  

Awesome:

• The amount of strength I have gained in my arms from climbing.
• Christmas music.
• Clumsy Ninja. It's basically a tamagotchi for your iphone and we love it a little too much.
• The drug dealing neighbors have officially moved out!!! (I have yet to meet/see our new neighbors and I am terrified of the possibilities.)
• Not driving in snow ;) 

Wrap it up

First off I just want to say that The Walking Dead is taking years off my life. Years. That is all.

November really proved to be a fabulous month. After enduring the summer we were rewarded with awesome weather. Which made some of my goals pretty easy while messing up others ;)

1. Eat 4-5 fruits and veggies a day.

Super easy when I remembered to go grocery shopping. Salad for lunch along with yogurt and fruit, bam, done. Throw a veggie in for dinner and check it off the list.

2. Work out 30 minutes a day, everyday.

This was pretty easy as well due to the awesomeness of the weather. The cold I had for 2 weeks killed this goal for the entire 2 weeks, but when I was better I was back!

3. Keep the Nails Pretty

I am horrible at painting my nails. I'll paint them once and then let them slowly chip away until they've practically cleaned themselves. I was muuuuch better, and had some lovely looking nails the past 40 days. Now they are all clean (climbing this weekend destroyed them) and waiting for some more polish.

4. Dress up for 5 Date Nights

Alright, so this may have only happened twice.... maybe. In my defense, the weather. No need to dress up and.... walk around Target? Get dessert? Grocery shop maybe? We live in a very small town, with no dress up date options. We opted to dress down and hike and climb instead. As seen in my photo, I did not set a goal to clean or do laundry in a timely fashion. I'm not crazy.

It was a fun couple weeks trying to carry out some new goals and keep up with some old ones. I definitely started taking a little better care of myself and felt great doing so! Now bring on the cookies and hot cocoa!!!!! Ha, no but really.

TurkeyClimbing

Happy December everyone!

Our Turkey Day plans sort of fizzled out this year, so there sadly was no feasting or family for us. Don't worry though, we made out pretty good regardless.



We kicked off the long weekend with a bit of rappelling and bouldering at Pioneer Park on Wednesday afternoon. Man did that work my baby arms! I had a slight meltdown before rappelling but managed to get over it.

For Thanksgiving the next morning, we woke up early and headed out to Chuckawalla. We mountain biked in to Turtle Wall where we spent the whole day climbing and swinging around. Our Thanksgiving dinner was a picnic lunch complete with turkey sandwiches. Close enough! We were there until dark and we had thoroughly exhausted ourselves. All we wanted was to go home, get in a hot shower and eat cake.

Of course we didn't have anything to make a cake with so we headed out to the Pre Black Friday madness. We stopped at KMart quickly and realized they didn't have everything we needed, so we tried WalMart. Wow, that was a huge mistake. I dropped Chad off at the door, he went in and then immediately turned around and came out. Ha. So back to KMart we went. Since the deals didn't start until 7 we got to be first in line, thank goodness it was 6:50.

We continued to search high and low for cool whip to make a delicious ganache to cover our cake in to no avail. We lucked out and ended up having some in the freezer, a Thanksgiving miracle!

Friday we took a break from climbing and headed out to do a little shopping.... for clothes to climb in of course :)  We wore them the rest of the weekend but will be sure to wrap them up in time for Christmas!

Saturday we went back out to Green Valley. Chad worked on his climbing project and I finished up mine. I tired a beast of a climb, for me, and made it to the top and the very end. I wanted to give up, and would have a couple weeks ago, but not this weekend! We both worked h-a-r-d. Sunday I was beat but we went out to Moe's Valley so Chad could boulder. I hadn't been back in the valley before and it was gorgeous. We both had a good time and by the end Rukia, Chad and I were dead tired.

So that's how we wrapped up our long weekend: exhausted, dirty, sunburned and just a little bruised and bloody. And it was absolutely fantastic.